Restlessness

i could not do that job because i could not get hold of him....
i could not write this because he did not help
he dumped me because of no reason of mine
she did dumped me for that guy because i was not rich

we often hear these words from many of us. some times it makes me think,
are we not capable of handling these situations. Why do we hurl abuses on others
for our failures. If i dont study well, i will flunk in the exams. If i dont read well, practice well,
i will fail in the interview. No amount of defending your situation would help u in getting
ur thing back. But there can be cases which are beyod our reach, our maximum aim should be to get our things done, if we do see that it wont happen, then we should sit and think, whether its worth the try.

More often we take decisions saying its very ddifficult. But more often its possible from us, but we dont try it putting our heart in it.

I have committed the same mistakes......

i have given reasons for my failures, be it my personal life or professional. Rather than changing my attitude, i gave reason for many years. But did that change anything. Clearly it changed nothing, but it gave me the same answers for all my failures.

i dont consider coming to US was an acheivement. All tom-dick-n-harry comes to US for work or studies. But what did i acheive after coming here. I became lazy, damn-good-lazy-guy. Became dependent on others for small things which i should not have become. Why do i take comfort in being parastitic on others for small things.

I have to be independent, risk-taking( clearly for my benifit) and also successful. I know that there is no clear solution for this , other than clear planning. But for that i have stop thinkin on unnecesssay things which are diverting me. I have to do it now, before its too late for me to recover. I know being restless in getting the aim successfully would not do any good to me, but maintain calm n working towards the aim is the right way. Foremost thing is i should take risks worth taking , which could guarantee me( At least get the hope of getting ) the success....

Bless me LORD that i would work towards things as i have said now without giving reasons for not doing this.