ONE BAD DREAM

Off late I have been reading CNN NEWS coverage about the USA PRESIDENTIAL PRIMARIES and CRIME in USA…..both are disgusting…..

USA is no better than INDIA when it comes to politics…..

There in one crime column I had read, a mother killing her daughter(3 month old) by burning her in the microwave. its really disgusting…..

I don’t know whether it was in my mind when I slept yesterday night. I had a very very bad night ……. I was sick when I woke up….

The dream goes like this…….

I am in USA studying…..and aunty X is residing near my college…and I would visit their place almost every day…..

Once Aunty would ask me to look after her grand son…..what I would do is instead of carrying him on hand, I would place him in a open bag and carry on my back…
I would play happily with the kid, but it would start to drizzle, hence I would close the bag to protect the baby from getting drenched, at the same time, some of my friends would come over there and they would rush me to a party. I would forget the bag entirely….. I would get boozed and that day passes on…..I have forgotten abt the kid….the next day aunty asks me abt the kid and I would say that I had left him at their place yesterday before going to party….but 2 days later when the case has been lodged against me by Aunty, I would panic and search for the bag…..I would find that near the campus compound, I baby inside is dead….I could not control the guilt of killing a baby because of my forgetfulness … I would go back to home, write a letter to my mom abt this and say abt myself those secrets which I have been maintaining for life long and commit suicide……….

Isn't this sickening?

I woke up the next day morning with this dream, felt bad abt myself of thinking of committing suicide in my dream, which I believe is against my convictions…..

I had to take a bath, think abt something which makes me happy so that my day would not go bad……As usual, my friends who were online from INDIA( sandhya and Shiva) made my date with some joyful conversations….

Now here I go to office, to do some testing.. :-)